I Hardly Can Define an Admiration from First Love

This was an inspirational message that I delivered to my

Juniors and Seniors, Batch of 2009, last February 14.

Because this month of February is known among

young men and women to be Heart’s Day, most

specifically every 14^th day of the month, I share

them one of my best love story in life…my early

childhood story.

I was in Grade VI that time with the same month.

I received my first love letter from our Class

Valedictorian, a consistent valedictorian from

Grade I to VI. Some of us admire his extra talent,

hence I was not an exemption to it. I admire him

ever since, from the way he speak down to his way of

dressing. To be simple, I like every thing about him.

But when I received his letter, I got lost and cannot

define my mode. I feel the world trembling and

for an eagerness to discover the contents of it,

I hid the letter under my skirt and ran to the

School’s comfort room. I read the whole text

of the letter. What more to be found except

admiration from my simple beauty and being

friendly. I am a talented too, he spelled out!

But, I know I cannot bit him. At the bottom

of his letter…P.S. Please don’t fail to reply!

From the day I received his letter to date,

we never speak to each other. That was 1970

and our next acquaintance after our

Elementary Graduations was in 1988.

We happened to be in one Pediatric Clinic

and met every month for our child’s monthly

immunizations. But we never speak. I found out

from his wife that he is a license Engineer

married to the same Profession. They have

four children and I have three. The distance

that hindered us from our oldest trend were

his six letters that never acquired reply

from me. We were best friends then,

but since the date that I received his

first letter, I feel betrayed and I never

try to talk to him.

As I grew older, I understand that my

closeness to him then was a mere admiration

and not love. I understand to love always

finds its way, but I never did. As days

passed by, I found out that when we love

a person, his name sounds like music to

our ears and lingers even to a distance of

three layers walls. I feel confused because

after that six letters that I received from

him, my next lovers and more lovers seems

not original when they used to reasons

out how they like and being in love with

me. Majority of them all end up in expressing

that I am beautiful and very friendly.

Some words were not new to me any more.

My elementary admirer has said that

already, and therefore, I already

know that I am beautiful.

I’ve been in love for the first time too,

but when I tried to weigh the two, I

have lots of memories in my elementary

admirers because of his originality.

It is to him that I found that I am

really beautiful. If any one could found

this writing, I would like to invite their

attentions and please correct me if I

defined the two in a proper manner.

Though my anecdote in my early childhood

same funny, but it leaves a memory in my heart.

At the end of my speech because, this was an

inspirational message, I advise them not decide

hastily when dealing with a friend. Observe finely,

don’t be in a hurry in handling your true

feeling. You might misunderstand why she is too

close to you. She might just admire you for

what you are and not a lover and may cause

to lose her permanently, like mine.